Sunday, 8 August 2010

More musings on selfishness...

Selfishness has many twisted faces and can be disguised in many seemingly innocent gestures and noble acts. People who try boycotting forms of media which they regard as being psychologically harmful to others are of course trying to shield humanity from harm aren’t they?

The emergence of Gangsta rap is a good example of this. When N.W.A released “Straight Outta Compton” in 1988 there was uproar in America meanwhile in Craigavon, County Armagh I was like WHA? This is amazing these fuckers are expressing anger, pure raw anger I loved it immediately why? Because it’s real, anger is real and being angry is understandable.

People who try to disregard anger and hide from it are going to find that they have to face something about themselves at some point in the future that they do not like. What we are all actually doing is projecting our dislikes onto other people to try and take focus of ourselves. If a person is very visibly upset about a certain issue to the point that they are always trying to convince others they are hiding their true reasons for being so upset. Remember it is easier to blame than face your own demons but since fear drives people to not be able to face their own true nature trying to explain this to people who are in the midst of denial is virtually impossible, they will do anything to detract from themselves.

I have anger, anger like many people could not imagine. My anger has caused the breakdown of personal relationships it has caused problems within my family and it nearly caused my own demise but I had to go through it there is no way out of it. I had to face the reasons why I was angry which stretched back 30 years. I did find one major factor which made my anger worse and that was the lack of understanding I got from other people. People are very judgemental and they think they know everything. They use hypothetical models that only exist in their own heads to tell them all about the world and all the people in it. If something is outside their realm of understanding they can only use the closest experience they themselves have had to quantify an occurrence that they don’t know anything about. They then feel perfectly justified in talking about other people because the structure within a society based upon blame relies on them comparing themselves to others and if they’re socially more upstanding than others those below them basically those lower down the social pecking order deserve what they get.

I express anger in my poetry there are a couple of pieces in particular that are absolutely brutal. I sometimes cringe at them myself but I still perform them because they were relevant to how I felt when they were written. I am not standing on stage saying I am something I am not I accept my past the problems arise when other people have difficulty with it because they're looking for a nice shiny world that is a myth. Only by going through the process and coming out the other end could I fully begin to understand my reasons for being and for being angry. I have issues, we all have I have serious issues with my family that I won't discuss I will write about it all one day but people on the outside looking in never ask why and they don't care they just judge.

I start youth work very soon working with young offenders. Why? Because these people are just being left to the proverbial dogs by society people think they’re scum in reality they are confused human beings who have lost their way and need some guidance. I was left to the dogs by people who were pretending to be strong, pretending that they were protecting themselves by doing so, I was not the weak one they were. At some time in the future they will be having an awful time and they will expect everyone to rally round and help them even though they have left others to endure hell and at some point there will be no one to help them and only then will they know what they have done and I hope they learn from it, I did.

I support letting people express themselves and the simple reason why is that I understand what people are going through. Much of the poverty that exists especially in the Western World is avoidable but because the people in charge choose to keep most of the wealth to themselves we inevitably will have criminals and people who have nothing to lose by trying to get what they need.

Censorship amounts to a collective covering up of the problems that exist within society. if people are drawn to angry music it means they relate to it and that means there are underlying issues and reasons for it. Those who want to stop people from listening to and watching what they deem unsuitable are being sensitively selfish what they are saying is that they can’t cope with something, that they don’t like bad language, they don’t like pornography, gangsta rap and metal are offensive. Fair enough well lots of people think that believing in 2000 year old stories about questionable characters is offensive but the detractors don’t put that in their remit do they? No. Why? Because they know best well I am sorry they don’t know best if you try to stop anger you will make it worse we should be helping people through these issues instead of pretending the world is a big fluffy cushion!

Peace! Only another two hundred million revs to go.

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